Butterfly Kisses From Beyond

 It doesn't seem to matter how much time passes since our loved one was taken from this physical realm.  There will be moments that hit you like a brick, and the emptiness fills your shredded heart. Sometimes I catch a glance at my son's photo, and I yearn for his presence.  I know he comes to me in a spiritual way, to comfort me in the moment but I long for more.   The last days of his existence in this world plaque my mind, and I wish we had talked longer, hugged, and made the most of our last moments together.  Unfortunately, they ways of the world overtook us, as we had to cut his birthday celebration short as the next work day was looming over the evening. I remember picking him up the next morning to drive him to work, and as our last minutes were fading, we were consumed with the time on the clock.  We were running late on the highway, and when I pulled into the community to drop him off, the cement truck was waiting for him. He grabbed his item...

 Many people have heard the phrase, "time heals all wounds"... In the case of grief, this is not necessarily correct.  Grief does transform as time passes; however, it never really truly ceases to exist. When you are first faced with the loss of a loved one, the pain is raw and emotional.  The feelings of helplessness and emptiness fill your entire being with dread.  Sometimes the emotions are so overwhelming, it's hard to imagine that the pain in your heart will ever stop aching. In my own journey of loss, I have watched my grief transform in many ways.  As I write this, I can't even fathom that I have existed on this planet without my son in physical presence for almost seven years.  In the early days of his passing, my heart was shattered and at that time, beyond repair.  It brought me into a tail-spin of crushing trauma to realize that I had to go on living, when I thought he could not. Over the course of my heart-wrenching journey, I've realized t...

Calming the heart is a never-ending process. Grief will always be a part of us... there is no journey that ever truly finds a finish line. The feeling of loss and emptiness from losing a loved one will remain, no matter how many years pass. You may be surrounded by joy, love, and happiness, and still there is a void that looms over your existence, as a part of you has disappeared from this realm.  You can be grateful in one breath, and breathless from sorrow in the next instance.  It is a feeling that we learn to live with... an adjustment to our way of life that somehow correlates within our adaptation to the way we now live our lives. Peace and serenity can exist alongside of sadness.  It takes some self-analysis, and examination of our inner core to be able to reside in a world of conflicting aspects, but it is possible.  You will be able to experience great ambitions and expectations, even though a part of your life is completely erased fr...

Losing Loved Ones Is Difficult To Swallow Emotions run high when the ones we love leave this planet. As humans, we are not immune to the fact that many of our loved ones will pass away during our lifetime.  No matter how prepared we think we might be, we will not be ready for their departure from this world. Losing the people we care about is such a devastating time, that no words can express the pain that your heart feels.  The emptiness abounds, and cloudy thoughts are at the forefront of your mind. Even if your loved one was battling a long illness that was considered terminal, we can't fathom the life we must live after they are no longer here in the physical sense.  Even if you believe that the spirit lives on, it is very hard to cope with life when their presence has disappeared.  Many people around the world are blessed with signs from beyond, or experiences that they can't explain, but the majority of time, we are left with a certain vo...

Emptiness is a part of grief that never truly heals. There will always be a void that forever stays open like a gaping wound. Losing a loved one is something that one never gets "over".  There are reminders everywhere that a physical presence is missing... a longing for their voice, laughter, or simply their company. There are many aspects of grief that can never be repaired, even when one completely believes in the afterlife and realizes that spirit lives on after death.  When left in the world of matter, we have to live with the fact that someone is missing from our lives.  It is a pain that will always leave a gnawing sentiment, even when we are surrounded by joy and happiness for present events that are happening in our realities. I've learned to survive the emotional turmoil, and the majority of time, I am confident and ambitious towards a bright future; however, even years later, the circumstances of my son's absence hits me like a woodpile toppl...